4/2/24
Trying to figure out flexbox... Fuck me, right? Idk how to do this shit. I'm finally using a live code editor so you wont see it reflected here, but I feel like I may be learning a few things. I have one math requirement to fill for my degree and I will be taking a CSE class which focuses on CSS, and I think HTML and Javascript. Im really excited about that. Idk what I'm doing and maybe I'm speaking too soon because I havent been doing it long and dont know much, but I kinda feel like I'd really like doing this kind of thing and I wish I'd looked into it and taken some classes earlier on. But I guess I cant fathom how complicated things get so I dont know if I'd be able to stick with it. Anyway, I'm motivated now because I drew a mockup of my ideal site (within reason, since i cant do anything complicated rn) and I want to figure out how to do it. I just have no time :'(
3/21/24
Havent written anything in a while. I'm not interested in writing anything until I can sit down and properly organize my site. I'm thinking of making the home page simple, with a graphic and minimal text and adding hyperlinks to other pages. ideas so far: self-improvement diary, dream journal, recipes i like, and a page for my art.
1/23/2024
Dear Keroppi pen,
Ive neglected you. To be honest, I forgot you were there among the sea of clutter in my room, not fulfilling your purpose.
I only recently rediscovered you; And lets be clear, you stick out like a sore thumb amidst all your neighbors, so I was bound to.
Sitting in a little cubby of plain old practical pens with chewed on caps, there was you.
Sanrio has become a staple of y2k, kawaii, and pastel goth fashion. I could go on to name a few more associated aesthetics.
The world has sort of become over-run with images of sugary sweet Sanrio characters slapped onto just about anything.
Yet, I cant seem to view Keroppi and his Sanrio friends with any contempt.
I'm not tired of seeing them, and I'm especially glad to see Keroppi and Badtz-Maru get love.
So pen, when I have you with me, covered with that silly little frog... It adds a little something positive to the atmosphere.
I love how many colors you have all-in-one! I love how smoothly you write!
I love how cutely chubby you are, and how that helps me get a good grip on you when you and I write together.
I also like that I have no choice in biting you. You arent a very biteable guy, so you stay nice and pretty.
Thank you, Keroppi pen! ~
12/16/23
Today I got my toes done a bright red for Christmas.
I almost left because the salon was having a Christmas party for their employees and were about to shut the store down,
but the lady at the desk insisted I come in and said they were still setting up.
I stayed, got a nice corner chair, and they gave me a little cup of red wine for free.
I remember when I used to scrunch my face up at the thought of red wine over white,
but now it seems like an obvious choice. Wonder how that changed?
I used to hate beer, too.
The employees were excited to be celebrating with one another,
It was so wholesome that I felt a bit of understanding for the holiday spirit.
Its easy to forget why people like this holiday so much,
but if everyone's holidays were spend surrounded by love like that, it might make sense to everyone.
I'm going to make sugar cookies and learn to make a more complicated website if I feel up for it at all.
I want to add text boxes you can scroll through.
It's a bit awkward to write anything meaningful when I know there are people I know irl with access to this,
so I have to make this something other than a diary or place to write.
I couldnt post anything I write here seriously. Maybe this will be a place for art if I ever find myself able to make it.
= 12/.../23
the only people who arent losers are people who are genuine and honest with themselves and others.
seriously, its so easy to tell when people are holding onto their crafted identity for dear life.
and doing things for social credit or to try and feel higher up in the social heirarchy theyre obsessed with
throwing yourself into a passion is much more interesting than chasing success
which is why I shouldve gone to art school ;-)
