8/25/25

something else lay hidden
behind modelesque features
the beautifulest stare
was it imagined?

i felt the pattern of it
i saw its smoothest skin
but i too want for its severed edges,
its grime and sludge
to fully see and no less

10/27/24

Being in Death and Dying has made me consider my own death in a way I otherwise wouldnt have. I do think about the possibility of death, but I now know enough about the different means of dealing with a body post-death to be able to say: I dont care what happens to my body! It's pretty much gross and disgusting no matter what. Embalming, donating to science, regular old decay.. Its all really undignified and grotesque. There's no way around the morbidity of death. Cremation is also very gross, it just happens quicker and only one person sees your body during the process. However, the emissions are really bad for the environment. Direct cremation is, however, the cheapest option. Let it be in writing that I dont care what my loved ones decide to do with my body after I die as long as 2 things are true: There is no open-casket funeral, and nobody spends a ridiculous amount of money on something dumb like a casket. If you absolutely MUST honor me with something expensive and cool, spend it on a really cool headstone. Put me a stone crow on there or something. Or just be smart and dont buy anything super extra. If it makes anyone feel better, if you have to use stuff thats really creepy and old, thats fine because I like goth stuff and thats just cool to me. Hell, get a $25 headstone from Halloween Express and put it out there. Anyway, consider donating my body to science. I really feel as though thats the best option because it makes me feel like I have been of use by helping someone develop their medical expertise, or furthering scientific research.